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'Ello Heart Landers,

   So I am going to keep my promise on giving ya'll an ear update from my Thursday Dr. Appointment. Although its not  as joyous as we hoped. Joyous..is that a word? Hm well it is now! :-b

  We left around 11am, took 2 hours to get there, It was a nice drive I love just going on  drives,  glancing out the window, enjoying the dead but ,still good trees, knowing that in a month or two buds will start appearing on them ,which will turn into beautiful leaves of all colors, the touch of snow on the ground! We passed a lot of farms and such! Its always good to see them ;). And just clearing my head!! (Haha I tend to do that a-lot) but boy was I nervous! 

    We got there a-bit early so we grabbed some lunch and headed for the waiting room where we waited about an hour before they took us back to a room. Kaitlin (My older sister who is in FL, for college)  had called me while we were waiting and told me she was praying for me and I got to talk to her for a little while so that was nice and made my day a little brighter! But then they called me back, My hands started to shake as I followed the nurse to the room. She asked me(and my parents) questions, on what happened and everything. Then a another nurse/ doctor came in and asked more questions, checked my ear cleaned my ear. blah blah blah blah blah all that good stuff, I think.  She took the information to the main doctor, along with my blood test results, and all information on the medication I was on. He came in a little bit later and checked my ear as well ,saying that they looked clear but wanted to do a hearing test just to be sure. And that's where the trouble went. They did 2 test; one was where I didn't have to participate in,  they stuck 2 earplug like cords in, and ran a machine. This test was to check how my drums were. They came out perfect, in fact more then perfect; from what she (the hearing nurse) said. But when they put me into a booth, headphones, and played sounds, read words. I couldn't hear. Took back to the room, He came in again saying that it doesn't make sense, with these 2 test results being completely different. My parents weren't going to let him off that easy. The other specialist said the same thing. They asked then why pain? why the hearing lost? He said the pain is probably just a muscle irritation, to take an Advil and that's it, but the hearing, shes 17 and has no reason have hearing loss, so in that case he was saying I am lying! Or I was under a lot of stress. (Yeah right!) Okay lets get this one thing straight I don't let tress over come my life. Life is too short to have it overcome it. So we left, me disappointed and upset, that they would call me a liar and making this up? really? And left my parents at the same position we were in before ,Daddy said they say that when they don't know the answer. On the way home they called my doctor and explained what the specialist said. He wasn't buying it as much as we were, he said to have a peace of mind he thinks we should still investigate on this. Do an MRI. but, I chickened out, for now anyway. I needed a break from putting my body through lot already from the medication and all. So right now were praying and seeking God for HIS guidance. Which I am more then positive HE will show us! I believe all of this is going to work out in a way only God can do! in HIS timing. Now I just have to be patient and wait for it to happen. and boy am I waiting to see how Hes going to work this all out!!!!!!!!!
                 Sooo thats the update! and on the way home being upset and disappointed Daddy wanted to take me and Momma out... and while I was forking a piece of steak in my mouth, he just happen to slide a small little box over to me. The box was a light blue color, covered in a velvet coating. I paused with the fork half in and half out of my mouth and I shifted my eyes from the box to him, and back to the box. "Whats this?" I said as I set my fork down, still holding the piece of steak. "Just little something I've had a for a long while now. before Christmas in fact." He answered waiting for me to open it. I slid my plate over and opened the box.

 "I promise" He said, "I promise I will protect your heart, and watch for the right guy for you, and I promise when he comes, I will give your heart to him. He's out there Hope!  I know he is"